a small regret

Sometimes I make the wrong decisions. I know that I am as I'm making it. 

What is that?! 

It's nervous energy. It's fear. It's discomfort. It's knowing what it is and not wanting to face it. Feeling an insurmountable obstacle to tackle.

The poor choice didn't seem to have any real ill effects.  Except maybe that my day might have looked different if I chose self-love instead of self-sabotage.  If I chose the healing meditation that would've set me on course for a better decision.  If I reached for my balancing oil and let it work my nervous system to peace.  But of course my oil wasn't right next to me.  I resisted the meditation (which my oil would've helped release).

There's never a wrong move, to be honest. I needed the reminder which this small regret gave me. Today, I hold my oil. Today, I do that kriya. Today, I embrace the meditation.  My compassion and love for myself, for my Soul, swells.

​Sat nam.
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